wedding rehearsal

the rehearsal was fun, with mr poh and i nervously fumbling over our vows the first time round. it's really scary saying one's vows on stage with all eyes on us.

it's really such a blessing to see how everything ran so smoothly, with the help of very capable friends (:

looking at the pictures mum took at the rehearsal just now (can't upload cuz don't have the right device to), we really look like kids on stage!!

3 more days. the road to oneness will officially commence, a life of learning to share almost everything begins, and we learn to die to ourselves even more each day. (:

see you at the wedding!

pre wedding jitters

never thought i'd feel this anxious, or fearful. but i do.

fear of the unknown, and the known. anxious of how life will be as i enter the phase called change. funny how i still struggle with change this much, when change is pretty much a constant in life.

these few days have shown me and hubby2be so much of my ugliness, it shocks me to know that he still wants to marry me. scary isn't it, to have such conversations and thoughts less than 2weeks to the wedding? but this really just shows me how unworthy I am. it shows me how desperately i am in need of God.

so as i count the days down (11, 12?) to the big day, i'm needing to remember to REST, with YOU. needing to take in my last days of being a single, an independent, that the days of me being an emotional selfish b**** have to die one by one if i want to truly love mr poh. [sorry if you're offended by my use of language. but i've realised that there're days i'm carnal enough to deserve that name :( ]

i'm not the only one having jitters. think grandma has her own too. i do hope the crying'll stop, so i won't be a puffer fish bride. i do hope even more, that my heart'll be yielded so He can mould me.

girlfriends who are reading this, thank you SO MUCH, for having journeyed with me at different points in my life, that have shaped me to this day. and i trust you will continue to do so. cuz that's what He placed you in my life for.

now there're vows to memorize, speech to prepare for, and thank you cards to make (:

by the way, only today it hit me, 'WHAT was i thinking to go for a 3hour dance class 2days before the wedding???' *sigh* me and my brain. craziness.

thankful

Dear Daddy,

thank U that my seemingly frivolous hope (& prayer) that someone would treat me to a mani-pedi for wedding day actually came true! so very thankful for that.

i'm looking forward to stagemax finally being here. hope i can give my best despite the blinding LED lights.

i wonder if the age of facebook and twitter signals the demise of blogging. :(

help hubby2be and i to settle all that we need to in the next 3weeks!

thank U that U love me, and are patient with me even when i'm not.

lovely weekend of surprises!

the bridesmaid's proposal, after almost 2 months of planning on jordan's part.
grand proposal included a live quartet playing, a banner printed with 'Will you marry me?' in Spanish, flowers handed to jordan from friends and family to make a bouquet for her, teary eyed joey, a declaration of love on bended knee and a long awaited nod (yes!)
and an engagement party @ the bar to end the night.
the 'precious moments' couple who've journeyed 7years together. can't wait for their wedding! (:

the next morning, jordan and joey labored hard to prepare the sweetest door gifts and decorations for my bridal shower in the afternoon. just a few snapshots of the mirade of flowers i received! (: