not enough

as i lay in bed on sunday night while waiting for the hubby to come to bed, i suddenly melted into a puddle of tears.

fears of not being able to be the mum i want to be, of not being able to parent my kid(s) well, of the times of hurt i'll experience when they rebel (ya, think so far right)...fears that i'll not be enough.

as the hubby prayed for us and baby poh, felt God remind me "you're not meant to be enough. I didn't create you to be enough. only I am."

the Truth that i needed! even the hubby and i aren't enough for each other, and we can't be. i will never be enough for my kids, and this i must tell myself when the perfectionist-idealistic me springs up to attempt to conquer the world. or when the kids feel disappointed in their mum who is only human. they too will need to learn that i'm not meant to be enough for them. only God is.