pain and tears

i just had another teary session. 'another' because i've had some throughout the whole pregnancy. although it's 5more weeks to full term (of 37weeks), i'm quite tired already.

Asher's increasing weight is beginning to take a toll on my body. while the pelvic ligament pain has eased up a lot, it hurts a lot when it decides to return. and that makes sitting or lying down a pain. which means standing up is the better option. and in the last few days, that has resulted in my left knee and ankle joints hurting like crazy. it feels like rheumatism but worse. :'(

so while i sat in bed crying, the hubby came by and listened sympathetically to my lament. and poked my tummy, telling the baby boy "you must love mummy ok, she's going through a lot for you."

honestly, i feel guilty cuz i know a lot of women go through much worse than me during their pregnancies. at the same time, i don't know how they tahan. this has also given me greater respect for all mothers out there. God be the strength i need...